Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Missing Sum1.....is such a PAIN...

DarLing BaoBei reali not bk today from army camp le...actuali he's suppose to cum bk today de..usually bk out at 4.30pm..he told me yest tat "most likely" not coming bk today...a " most likely"..there's still giving me a hope..but u c..now already 4.47..think reali cant bk out le..

Yest...msg wif DarLing BaoBei..he told me tat he won't be cuming bk today..and tml...upon knowing...i'm a little sad..but still feeling ok de..coz..i thought he bk on fri and wkends...BUT.....unexpectedly..he told me he being confined..confined for 8 or 9 days....!!.& he said maybe tis wk cant c me le....my heart sank ..reali sank...there's asking.."reali not bk for 9 days?...why confined my Darling Baobei???..he would feel tough.."....at tat moment..i dum noe..wat to msg Darling Baobei..le..I felt veri..SIAN..& LONELY..I reali dum noe why..my eyes begun to turn watery.....watery...but still had to go out wif mummy shopping...but u think do i've the mood??? on mrt..i told darling..i stopped msg him at the moment.lst.coz..i dum noe why i became blank..too sad to msg him le..i turn to my laopo..

she consoled me...and said i've to bear..dean also will blame himself for being confined..de...thx alot laopo..keep "hong" wo kai xin...but i not kai xin..juz felt reali beta....at dinner tat time..i ate super lots..super fast...i noe..i'm not happy..le..whenever i behaves like tis....haixz...mummy also noe..on my way hm..on mrt..saw couples...i miss...Darling BaoBei..more..saw the gals having bf by their side ...i nid him too..dum noe when DarLing BaoBei will cum bk??

Not long i msg him..tat i had eaten..the feeling of sadness..still beneath..me..but i still msg him...he never mentioned anything..abt..the way i behaved...never..asked how my feelings?..alrite le mah since i msg him le..at least laopo..send alot of msg to "hong" wo..till i rch hm..we continue to msg each other..i told him..i felt like..a "acting wall" to him....tat..he ignored..he didn't even mention anything...abt my..feelings..he msg me tat i sounded like...as if he not lonely or wat.......Darling BaoBei...u misunderstood me le....juz felt..u never mentioned anything abt how i felt.. when i msg u again....

At nite..before i slept..at 12 plus..DarLing Baobei..called...i picked up the ph.."DEAR DEAR..."..upon hearing...his voice..i BURST..into tear...i miss him even more...Darling Baobei..kept .saying.."DEAR DEAR dum cry.."...but..i cried even louder..i told him " i LOVE U....."....not while we put down the ph.....coz it was..late.....after tat..i receive a 'smile' msg fr laopo..thx alot........& a msg fr my DarLing BaoBei......it written.............

"Baobei..juz..wan tell u..i reali miss n luv u alot..
...Ty..for all the waiting..i'll treasure it de..''

Once i saw this msg..i smiled..wif my teary face..i felt i been assured..Darling Baobei said "ty"..to me...he said he would "treasure"....he noe i've been the 1 missing ..waiting for him...out there ..always..i reali hope..reali hope Darling BaoBei..u meant ..it...

I've been wif DarLing Baobei..for 1 yr plus le..i've already gone so far wif him..it's not easy to miss..& wait..mmm..but i told myself to bear with it..since i chose to be wif him.....i luv DarLing BaoBei..i waited..already tis long..& we're still as sweetz..juz told myself..he bk out..we'll acc each other like glue...but juz dum noe wat happen to me yest??

Laopo said maybe its my "emotion"...maybe..I've reali felt the pain of waiting for sum1..the feeling.....of missing..DarLing Baobei...tat now i cant hide & control....le.......... i dum noe why....would ...behave like tis...when he'll not be able to cum bk..........i dum wan to be like tis de... like tis...maybe DarLing BaoBei would not feel gd too....confinement will be tough..to him.....i'm so heart pain...SORRY...DarLing BaoBei...i reali dum noe why i like tis...hope i would bear through..it.......but i dum noe how far i could...

DarLing Baobei...i'll wait for u cum bk...de...reali....wait for yr confinement to finish....i dum noe when u'll be cuming...bk....u too..not sure..but.......yr Dear Dear here will always....wait for "4.30pm"...to cum everyday..eyeing the ph......hoping..to receive .."DEAR DEAR..i bk out le...!!"....i wan u to noe ....there's always sum 1 waiting for u out there.................& u'll also mis me so so much ba......

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