Wednesday, February 11, 2009

" Am all .......ALONE tis VALENTINE again......."

Tis cuming sat is V.day le...it's the moments of luv..the day.. lovers express their luv tgt..the day u noe how much we luv.each other...the day tat'll spend the sweetest moment.tgt ...where we were showered wif gifts...romentic stuffs & thoughts fr 1 another....im looking forward to the day to cum..but...i won't have Valentine by my side...tat day le..im alone....

It's sat 14th of feb..i looked at the calender 1 mth ago & counted the wks...it falls on sat..& tat's the day DarLing Baobei no army..im soo happy..im like "flying to the sky"..immediately..wif no doubt..i told my boss i wanna took off on V.day..soo afraid i could not off...its hard to take off...but..it was grant.im glad...i could spend whole day wif him...last yr i couldn't have the chance..i planned everyting.........

i went library..not to read bks..but to find desserts menu..i borrowed..& wanna make him..nonbaked cake..or desserts like jelly..i planned to make it on fri..i lie to him tat..i gonna go a tok...and couldn't meet him up...although i reali miss him..but i wan give him surprise...sorri to lie to u DarLing BaoBei....:) ..i've prepared gift for him though...he dum noe tat i've took off tat day..i never tell him..juz wan to appear at his doorstep..in the sweet morning of V.day..wif the ting i prepare for him to eat..& the next spend moments wif him....i like the feeling the time we juz tgt...i mis..to get letters fr him & all but........................... everything....turns wrong...

yest actuali he could bk out..but a msg came...tat make my heart sank...do u noe how it feel??...he could not bk out for the day &...........Confinement started...till 18th Feb..he'll not be bk on V.day..........all the ting....a perfect V.day tat every gal would 1......has gone...im sad....reali sad...we cant spend the dat tgt le..........tat 've yearn......why muz it happened on the day once again?? ..im sad..but i never did blame him for tat....never did...confinement date he couldn't chose de...he would feel sad too...i told myself nvm..everyday would be a v.day if we reali sweetz....but .i'll still feel sad.eventually..juz dum noe why..hate it...

i juz angry & piss off when we tok on ph ..mmm dum wish to mention..much..at tat moment..i felt...the tings..the thoughts i've done...no 1 will noe...

.........mmm...could'nt deny........i felt SIAN.......'why muz always be tis day?'..i never felt tis b4...i went for a walk yest...saw V.day stuff..promotions....sweet words around...taking bus hm alone....these days looking out of the window...my eyes will eventually turns red.....& watery ..i dum wan like tis but i couldn't control....dum noe why...when the atmosphere out there..is filled wif v.day....i mis ...the way couple spent tis day tgt...im been dated.out .by sumones...& my ex bf..aloy..but nope..i went sch late tis morning.....i fall asleep...till i ate ...then wan call him..he thought i did not wan to msg......mmm....i cant deny apart fr falling asleep...i a little dum've the feel to msg..not i angry of him but ....the feeling...nei pls let tis feeling get away pls......

I always treasure & will look forward to tis day...i wan it to be the most memorable of us..i wan feel the way he express his luv for me..becos..i dum noe...will there be next......wii he noe my heart by then..?.i dum noe...if its worth waiting mah..?ha but....anyway..We're sweetz now..so everyday would be our sweetz ...Valentine's Day!!:D...

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